What lime is this?

This past month has been really good.  I've still been stressed because of normal college student-working-in-the-summer stuff, but my heart has been so much lighter this last 4 weeks.  


So what's been going on?


First off, I've been able to let go of so much anger against certain people.  With that gone, I have been able to feel more like me again, which is very nice.


Secondly, I have gone on a couple dates.  Some ok, some pretty good, and that has definitely been nice.  It's crazy how not going on dates makes you not feel like a girl anymore, but as soon as you do, your girliness comes back full fledged. And I like being a girl ;) 


Besides that, I've just been working and working.  I have two jobs right now.  One is at Lane Bryant at the mall.  I only work like 6-10 hours there though so my other job is at this call center type place working 25 hours a week.  Both are minimum wage but I'm grateful that I not only have a job, but have two jobs.  Money has been really tight recently but I wouldn't really expect it to be any other way!


The only thing that has been bothering me is wanting to go home so badly.  I miss my family a lot and my house.  And the beach.  And swimming pools.  And my parents.  And my friends.  And just home pretty much!  It costs about $350 to get there though, so that probably won't be happening, sadly.


To not focus on me anymore, LAUREN'S ENGAGED! And as we have learned, you can't spell engaged without gag.  But that's not the point.  This last week Mama Smith was here and it was so nice to have a mommy here!  She cooked for us and took care of us and it was just so nice!  We went wedding dress shopping and found Lauren a really beautiful dress!  We've been talking about colors and themes and ideas so much lately, I feel like I could plan my wedding in five minutes.  Just kidding.  But we have been talking about wedding stuff non-stop and it's been really fun, but really scary and weird!  We just seem too young to be getting married all of a sudden haha But I really am happy for them and can't wait to see everything come together and see my best friend married for time and all eternity!


That pretty much sums up my life right now.  Crazy yet simple and totally fun and unexpected!