Day 29-Wishes

A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep.

In dreams you lose your heartaches,

Whatever you wish for, you keep.

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling through.

No matter how your heart is grieving,

If you keep on believing,

the dream that you wish will come true.

If that was completely true, I have some weeeeird wishes.  But really.  

When it comes to the wishes that are made at 11:11, 12:34, 1:23, 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, etc, and shooting stars (or meteor showers... Same thing ;]) I always make the same wish.  

Wanna know what it is?

Too bad.  Because if I tell you it won't come true!  Let's just say in concerns a certain someone (not myself) and a certain something happening before a certain time (I always get specific so I don't have a "I didn't mean 5 years from now" moment).  

That's all you're getting out of me!

As for real wishes, though, I have a few I can share.

I wish there would be a guy who likes me enough (or has courage enough, I guess) to not only ask me on a date, but ask me on a second date.  I've never been asked on a second date (pitiful, I know).

I wish I had the abilities and willpower enough to actually study.  Since I never had to in high school, I don't really know how to too well now.

I wish I could be the example I need to be better and more often.  I am terrified that I might do something, anything, that sets a bad example for myself, my family, or the Church/Gospel.

I wish I could help everyone I see struggling.  It kills me to be helpless, especially with my family, but with my friends and strangers as well.  Although it sounds lame and cliche, my heart really does ache when someone needs my help and I can do nothing.

I wish I could become (or know what exactly I need to work on) the woman I'm supposed to be so that I can be a good wife and mother.

Sometimes I wish I was a better person, or different.  There are days where it's hard being yourself, but then I'm glad I'm me, faults and all.  I know I'm not perfect, but I'm trying to become perfect (not in a snooty way).  I know I mess up, but I don't mess up on purpose, and I hope/wish that people know that and can still love me for who I am, not who they/I want me to be.