Life is funny.

Just a heads up: this post is indeed about boys, but it's not about my patheticness, it's just pointing out the irony of life.


I haven't liked anyone basically all semester.  I haven't gone on any dates all semester.  I haven't even thought of schemes to get a guy to ask me on a date... I mean... I never did that to begin with... Yeah.


So here I am, at the very end of the semester, and I kinda actually like someone.  I mean, I guess in the back of my mind I've basically always had a little crush on them, but not really enough to count as a "crush".  Now I kinda do.  


Here are the qualities that make him awesome (these aren't the only ones.  I'm gonna sound shallow with these, but deal with it.):

He's 6'7".  Yeah. That's 3 1/2 inches taller than me.

He's VP of Tall Club.

He's really cute.

He's funny (Elizabeth would disagree).

He's 6'7".

He is a man. haha

Wanna see where the irony comes into play?


He's graduating.  Yeah.  I finally kinda like someone and they are graduating from college in a week and I will never see them again.  Awesome, no?


Life is funny.

Jeez Louise.

Ok.  So hopefully no creepers use this to track me down, but if I don't write it down, I may lose my mind.  So here goes!  (That sentence doesn't make any sense!  Why is that a saying we use? Whatever.)


Friday (today): Study, sell plasma, study.


Saturday: Work from 11-2 in the JSB (DEEEEATH!), take my Book of Mormon final


Sunday: Visit teach, church, cook, ward "eat everyone's leftover food" dinner, ward prayer


Monday: Usage final, Italian final (which I only have to get above a 40% on to keep my grade...)


Tuesday: Work from 7:45-11 in the testing center, study, pack


Wednesday: Hist. of Eng. Lang. final, work from 1:30-5 in the JSB


Thursday: Pack, work from 7-close in the testing center (superrrr deeeeeath!!!!)


Friday: Take everything to our storage place, cleaning check.


Saturday: FLY OUT!




Good grief.  I know my finals schedule has kinda really worked in my favor, but gosh.  The nightmares of running late to the airport and forgetting to pack stuff, or forgetting about leaving altogether have already begun!  

Best. Day. EVER!

So I have finally figured out why I sprained my ankle.  It was so I could be a pathetic cripple at the Unforum today!  Why was it so great?


1)I got to show my awesome gianthood along with other awesome giant people
2)I walked past a huge majority of the basketball team
3)I stood on stage with the entire basketball team
4)I got Logan Magnusson and some other player's autograph
5)I got Jimmer Fredette's autograph
6)I got Abuou's autograph
7)I GOT JIMMER FREAKING FREDETTE'S AUTOGRAPH!
8)I got frozen yogurt


Yeah. Good day.

Who's awesome at trampolining?

Me. Yeah.  See what had happened was... We went to this power tumbling place where there are lots of trampolines and foam pits and uhm a giant bear-lion came roaring out of a foam pit and was heading straight towards little Timmy with his broken leg so I kicked it in the jaw so hard that it died... 


I'm just kidding.  I suck.


Friday night, my ward had its closing social and for the activity, we went to this place called X-treme Air Sports (it's a power tumbling place, like a few blogs back) and I was there for about five minutes, jumping on the trampoline for about 1.5 minutes when my life was destroyed.  I mean not really... But kinda.


I was doing a sweet split - that Elizabeth didn't get a picture of! - and when I landed, my ankles twisted in and I fell the the ground... well, if being on the trampoline still counts as the ground.

I was afraid that I had hurt both ankles so I sat there for a minute before moving to this big pad thing.  While sitting, my left ankle began to swell and I discovered a huge chunk of skin missing from my big toe on my right foot.  After a while of sitting there, I made my way over to the "injured kid corner" to sit with the recently injured Brett Maughan.  When it was time to leave, different guys (I can't remember fully who helped when) helped me out to the car.  Brett left on his own two feet.  Too bad he BROKE HIS LEG and is ten times more of a man than I am! haha

So since I couldn't get up the stairs to my apartment, I went to Erika, Sarah, and Lauren's which is a few steps down rather than about 20 steps up.  John and Matt Bohman, who helped me into the apartment, went home and changed and came back to give me a blessing.

Let me just talk a moment on this.  I have such a strong testimony of the priesthood.  The Spirit was so strong and it was so clear when they were blessing me how worthy they are and how much they care for people, including me haha I am so grateful to have had them there and for them to be willing to bless me.  I know that this whole thing would have been a lot worse if they hadn't given me a blessing!

There was a lot of crying that night, whether from my pain, the Spirit, my patheticness, or laughing and then my tears just slipping out.  I looked like a hot mess!

Saturday, I finally went to the emergency room since no doctors would answer their phones and I couldn't go to the BYU health clinic.  After a tooooon of x-rays, I finally found out that I'm actually just a big baby and have a 2nd degree sprained ankle.  I got a fiberglass splint that I have to wear for at least two weeks and crutches that I have to use for at least three days.  My upper body hurts like the dickens because have no upper body strength whatsoever!

Hopefully I'll get better soon and everything with school and work will work itself out!  I just need to have the patience and faith to make it through!

At least my mom and I will be twins now kinda!

Here are some more fun pics :] 

Brett pre-broken leg

Cindy's shoe (we have the same ones).  What's really funny is that my foot really is this big in comparison now...

I look pained but I'm really just pulling my hair back.

Pink hospital bracelet!  I've never had one like that before!!

What is this feeling so sudden and new?

I forgot what it was like to not have homework and to only have finals (and kinda one test) to study for.  What in the world?  I keep thinking "oh I need to go work on... nevermind.  That's all done now... I don't have to do anything..."

It's CRAZY!  

And is it weird that I miss having Usage homework?  Yeah.  I figured it was.

Come Listen to a Prophet's Voice

This weekend I got the pleasure of watching General Conference, as I'm sure all of you did since I think the only people who read my blog are LDS.  It was such a wonderful conference and I gained so many amazing insights.


After listening to the words of prophets and apostles, I can't help but be filled with optimism.  I think that's why we're given them, too.  Heavenly Father knows life is hard for us and that we would give up if we didn't have something to give our faith a boost to last us another 6 months until we can hear new words of wisdom all over again.  


Anyways, the thing that I took the most out of was marriage.  Maybe that's because they talked about it so much - or not at all according to Lauren.  Maybe it seemed like so much to me because they said everything that's been weighing on me so heavily lately.  I think a lot of why I've been feeling so alone is because... well... I am alone.  I have friends and family and guy friends... But I don't have a boyfriend or even someone that I like really.  As an LDS girl in college, that's really hard.  Especially when I'm in all junior level classes where everyone is either married, engaged, or about to be engaged.  It's rough when you try to do your part, you try to dress nice, fix your make-up, fix your hair, stand up straight (or at least try, Mom), and try are friendly to the people you meet, and nothing comes out of it.  It makes you wonder why you even try.


Conference fixed all of that, though.  Richard G. Scott, I think it was him at least, is the one that helped the most.  He talked about how sometimes we're trying and nothing seems to be working and it seems that we're never going to get married or have kids, but if we have faith in the Lord, it will happen.  He will make it happen for us when it's supposed to happen and we just have to keep doing our part and keep trying.  


That is exactly what I needed to hear.  I have such a testimony of Conference and that the Lord knows what we're struggling with and as long as we're doing what we should be doing, He will give us what we need to be okay and get by. We are never alone; He will always be there looking out for us and proving a way to accomplish all things - we just have to have the faith.

Different things on my mind:

1)  I can't believe there are only 4 weeks of classes left... CRAZY!  I am glad that I'm almost done with midterms though (just in time for finals!) but it kinda makes me sad.  I've met so many awesome people here and I know that most likely, I won't see the majority of them again.  Especially my guy friends.  I'll be graduated by the time they're back from their missions...


2)  Dear person who I consider a very good friend, please stop being so rude to me. You have been saying really mean things to me lately and I don't know what the deal is and I don't know if you just haven't noticed or something, but you've been really really hurtful lately.  I'm probably a coward for talking about it on here instead of just talking to you, but I don't want to make things worse.  All I know is if you're reading this and thinking "Is this about me?" maybe that tells you something... even if it's not you.  I think we all, including myself, need to make a better effort at being kind and not saying things when we know that certain things hurt people's feelings.


3)  I really want to go to Italy.  A non-profit organization in Italy (ACLE) is hiring people to teach English to children in the summer and I think it would such an amazing opportunity.  They pay for food, accommodations, and wages, you just have to pay for your plane ticket.  And passport.  I really want to do it but I don't have the $1700 needed for everything on my part.  Part of me is talking myself out of it because I don't want to get my hopes up just to get let down, but the other part of me knows that if I don't take this trip now, I never will and I'll probably always regret it.  I don't know what to do though.  It sucks.


4)  If I don't work in Italy, I HAVE to get a job over summer.  Only issue is I can't handle a filing job or I'll lose my mind.  Especially if I end up filing after I had the chance of going to Italy to work.


5)  This weekend, I'm going to VEGAS!  It is going to be so wonderful to get out of Provo and just relax for a little.  I have been so stressed this past week or two and I think if I don't do something, I am going to have a mental breakdown.  That's all I know.


6)  I don't know what's on my mind.  I have so many happy thoughts filling it but then so many sad thoughts crowding in at the same time.  I suppose it's a good balance, I just wish I could remain in only the happy thoughts and find a way to solve whatever is causing the not so happy ones.  It's rough.  I know everything will get figured out eventually, it's just a lot harder than I'd like to get to that point.


7)  I hate the Italian version of Pinocchio.